my brave beautiful girl

this photo is fuzzy....but I like it so much...this girl of mine, is a wee rockstar...she's performing here in front of hundreds of people, auditioning with her band. She had just dedicated their performance to her friend who had been killed the night before in a car accident....she is courageous, strong and sensitive, she takes her feelings, when overwhelmed and channels them into creating with music. She fights for those who need a friend and she is loyal to those she loves.  She made me a Mama.

my journey...thus far.

I am on a journey...to gain health and fitness, to be a better example of a healthy strong woman to my girls.  Its hard work.  Sometimes it feels like its hard work every moment of everyday...and sometimes I can 'surf' the trickiness of it all.  I have lost 28kgs today. I usually wouldn't mention such a thing; but lifes shifting sands at the moment make this more momentous than 27kgs...its a milestone as I have officially lost 4 (much loved) pregnacy's weight. I now have myself to lose.  Its freeing.  I pray it will continue to be so...I have ALOT more to go....but am feeling more positive about it than anywhere else on this journey.  I have had to redefine some of what's important to me, I have had to find other ways to show I care for others (making treats for others being important in the past).  I have never been stretched and disciplined in this way, for so long or so hard.  It is hard to put oneself at the front of the que - as every mother who may read this will know! I know gaining health and wellbeing is worth the effort. Today I am thankful for so many things...

my anne of green gables girl....

this girl of my is sassy, sweet and oh so wonderful...I used to dream of having a girl JUST like Anne of Green Gables...who was dreamy and clever and fighting for those who need an advocate....tis funny how life sometimes serves you just what you dreamed, and adds a twist to make it even sweeter...thats my girl.